the next adventure

3.27.2006
as i mentioned earlier, i've been busy with a few other side projects. the aquarium design project is just about complete. i still have a few other pieces to finish off along with a few odds & ends. The finished designs will then need to be cataloged and photographed. I'm pretty happy so far with the results. It was a manageable investment that i hope will turn well over time. i can't tell you how great its felt to be creative again. i would spend 3 or 4 hours a night (after work and on days off) planning, researching, hunting for the product and designing. it was all i could do some nights to stop "working"!

oh, and the new blog is up and still has much to done to it. small steps right? i made a long list of potential names for the aquarium blog. much to my dismay, almost all were not available name-address for a blog. so i then tried to break down into key area's, what i wanted to achieve with the aquarium blog. the end result was this title 'aquarium lifestyle'. i'll explain another time, the details of it.

don't make mother come over

3.09.2006
thought you heard the last from me?

a word to the wise...if you can still feel all those lies on your tongue...cherish that sensation because it won't be long till i rip it out of your thick skull.

you should be ashamed of yourselves...you're there to help them find there way down the dark paths and not to take away the flashlight.

dan's a damn good teacher and you aren't allowed to fuck with his passion! it would be in your best interest, to write that down.


oh and one more thing sweetie's...

you'll be cleaning up all the blood, i will have been of course, wearing white that day.

time & family


i spent today over sleeping, squirming and traveling. last week mom asked me what i wanted for my birthday? i thought for a moment and it was clear... french fry's w/gravey! of course she anticipated and hoped for something more "commercial"; as always i had other ideas. so today ben (my brother) and i met up with my mom, my uncle, and cousin bonnie at the new berwick diner, berwick pa.. turns out the owner, chris, is greek. so an ever bigger surprise fell into my lap. not only was i able to have my fry's with gravy but i also had a few greek dishes to choose from as well! FAB! i remembered life in boston and the day i had my fist ever greek salad; i fell instantly. back to berwick...the food was great (salad, gyro w/lamb, stuffed grape leaves), my family did'nt argue once, uncle ren didn't tell any dirty jokes and mom & bonnie got to gossip about some of the other local ladies (patrons)! the owner brought out a freshly baked piece of chocolate cake (local baker in hazelton, pa. (hello mummsy!) mary/michele something) with a candle; they all sang way off key. the cake was delish! turns out chris is a customer at american paper & supply, where my mom works. all in all, a great time. wendy called (my sister) when we got back to my moms. we did a little catching up and talked about my "crafty" thinking. ben & drove back to wilkes-barre around 8pm and within about 15 minutes after being home, my m.s. decided to punish me for my day's activity. i had no choice but to go to sleep. my "nap" ended up being 2 hours. i'm back up now, working on ideas, listening to corrine bailey rae, having a little "smoke" and writing this...life is pretty groovy right about now.

and to the rest of you who also had a hand in making "my day" a-little brighter with cards, calls and emails...you're all very special to me. we all fit together in a comfortable, loveing way-don't we!

if you foregot, that's just fine. you're still loved bunch's!

a celebration of the fish's!

today, 8 march i turned 43!

I'd like to think of my life as a work in progress... learning, changing, adapting, helping and re-thinking. my absence over the past month or so stems from that.

imagine if i had said that i've been spending all my time at the wonka chocolate factory!

two projects have been in development: one is complete and the other is almost finished. i think it was early in 1996 when i decided to get on board with then, a new online auction business, called ebay. after a few years of mostly buying, i stepped back and looked at my spending habits: time to put on the breaks. yes the bargains were amazing and the new additions to the many things i collect made it even better. after this long period of "don't go shopping on ebay", i've decided to return to ebay as a seller (my ebay page here) on this particular journey. it's only been about two weeks since i put up my first item and i've already got my own little beehive of activity.

an underlying idea of the return to ebay was to also create a place to market something of my own creation and maybe make a few extra bucks! i'm a pretty talented guy and i've been lucky to have been blessed with a-lot of creativity abilities and a dynamic imagination. so with my knack for design, love of color and disgust of "what's available" i've decided to start creating my own line of aquatic landscape pieces. the first wave will be silk aquarium plants, offering alternative species & styles with a focus on color, form and presentation. most of us aquarium buffs are far too familiar of vast number of "plastic" plants that are available and just how un-natural most of them look. yes, silk versions do exists but in my opinion they are few in choices and way over priced. as of today i've got everything i need supply wise to start creating; the first designs will show themselves in a few days. i'll list them on my ebay site once they are ready. i'm also planning another blog for us aquarium hobbyist which will also showcase my work along with other articles of interest, ideas, species information and items related to freshwater fish tanks. i'll keep you posted. cheers!-ron

my hero

3.03.2006

damn technology

2.15.2006

i'm angry!

if you think, something different?...you're correct. for some unknown reason my blog template code got bajumbled and i lost all my links and images. once i have a few martinis and a few hours of opera i just might be moved to research all the missing data. kidding, i will rebuild as quickly as possible.

02152006 film

since i love film and work at the big b, i get to see a a-lot of films every week; i average about 4. and to broaden my selection, i'm also a netflicks subscriber. so i thought it might be interesting to share my thoughts and opinions on many of the films i experience on a bi-weekly basis. be for warned, i sometimes spend time, day dreaming, and forget to do all the things i ment to. some of the reviews will be short and some far too long. i like films that make me feel something; happy or sad. i don't like "everything" served up and figured out, i prefer to think about things. i appreciate any director that pushes "the buttons" or the limits. if it's laced with excessive, un-necessary reminders that it's a "straight world", i will always pass. subtitles are iffy and dubbed are generally a third choice. the more believable the character the better. o.k. there's a little of what's in-store and i always welcome comment's.

the rating scale: eyes closed=a real sleeper a wink=cute a high brow=good over-all bug eyed=better best


naked-mike nichols (dir.)
here's a director i love...all his films always have these individual's (secrets and lies-all or nothing) that are really complicated-complex and so believable.; naked is no exception. so this young guy, who's life is going nowhere, does a terrible thing to a woman then spends his days running from his emotion's. he ends up at the apartment of an x (she's the serious one) and is introduced to her room-mate. from here on in it's an "in your face" look into the day to day life and living of this threesome.

all their accents are very pronounced (britt) and at times, difficult to understand. there are a few scene's where one character will have this insane, extended set of lines. the delivery punch packs a wallop but you'll want to replay it a few times to take in all the words spoken and their structure. the x's room-mate is probably my favorite but the scene where the lead male (pictured) meets this street walker nut case. what an amazing performance; he's got this neck twitch thing that's really bizarre. the film takes you on a few rough rides (visual) along with all the dark troubles that face many of us. bug eyed!

more titles to come in the next few days...

a right to choose

1.31.2006

yet another example that bush & dick aren't always the "right" combination

ill or sick? prescription drugs evil truth

1.30.2006
there are many of us today that rely on medication, for one reason or another, with the hope of "feeling a little better" or "living a little longer". after you read this, count on feeling worse...

Let's hear it for Costco!! (This is just mind-boggling!) Make sure you read all the way past the list of the drugs. The woman that signed below is a Budget Analyst out of federal Washington, DC offices.

Did you ever wonder how much it costs a drug company for the active ingredient in prescription medications? Some people think it must cost a lot, since many drugs sell for more than $2.00 per tablet. We did a search of offshore chemical synthesizers that supply the active ingredients found in drugs approved by the FDA. As we have revealed in past issues of Life Extension, a significant percentage of drugs sold in the United States contain active ingredients made in other countries. In our independent investigation of how much profit drug companies really make,
we obtained the actual price of active ingredients used in some of the most popular drugs sold in America.

The data below speaks for itself.

Celebrex: 100 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $130.27
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.60
Percent markup: 21,712%

Claritin: 10 mg
Consumer Price (100 tablets): $215.17
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.71
Percent markup: 30,306%

Keflex: 250 mg
Consumer Price (100 tablets): $157.39
Cost of general active ingredients: $1.88
Percent markup: 8,372%

Lipitor: 20 mg
Consumer Price (100 tablets): $272.37
Cost of general active ingredients: $5.80
Percent markup: 4,696%

Norvasc: 10 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $188.29
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.14
Percent markup: 134,493%

Paxil: 20 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $220.27
Cost of general active ingredients: $7.60
Percent markup: 2,898%

Prevacid: 30 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $44.77
Cost of general active ingredients: $1.01
Percent markup: 34,136%

Prilosec : 20 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $360.97
Cost of general active ingredients $0.52
Percent markup: 69,417%

Prozac: 20 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets) : $247.47
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.11
Percent markup: 224,973%

Tenormin: 50 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $104.47
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.13
Percent markup: 80,362%

Vasotec: 10 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $102.37
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.20
Percent markup: 51,185%

Xanax: 1 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets) : $136.79
Cost of general active ingredients: $0.024
Percent markup: 569,958%

Zestril: 20 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets) $89.89
Cost of general active ingredients $3.20
Percent markup: 2,809

Zithromax: 600 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $1,482.19
Cost of general active ingredients: $18.78
Percent markup: 7,892%

Zocor: 40 mg
Consumer price (100 tablets): $350.27
Cost of general active ingredients: $8.63
Percent markup: 4,059%

Zoloft: 50 mg
Consumer price: $206.87
Cost of general active ingredients: $1.75
Percent markup: 11,821%

Since the cost of prescription drugs is so outrageous, I thought everyone should know about this. Please read the following and pass it on. It pays to shop around. This helps to solve the mystery as to why they can afford to put a Walgreen's on every corner. On Monday night, Steve Wilson, an investigative reporter for Channel 7 News in Detroit, did a story on generic drug price gouging by pharmacies. He found in his investigation, that some of these generic drugs were marked up as much as 3,000% or more. Yes, that's not a typo.....three thousand percent! So often, we blame the drug companies for the high cost of drugs, and usually rightfully so. But in this case, the fault clearly
lies with the pharmacies themselves. For example, if you had to buy a prescription drug, and bought the name brand, you might pay $100 for 100 pills. The pharmacist might tell you that if you get the generic equivalent, they would only cost $80, making you think you are "saving" $20. What the pharmacist is not telling you is that those 100 generic pills may have only cost him $10!

At the end of the report, one of the anchors asked Mr. Wilson whether or not there were any pharmacies that did not adhere to this practice, and he said that Costco consistently charged little over their cost for the generic drugs.

I went to the Costco site, where you can look up any drug, and get its online price. It says that the in-store prices are consistent with the online prices. I was appalled. Just to give you one example from my own experience, I had to use the drug, Compazine, which helps prevent nausea in chemo patients.

I used the generic equivalent, which cost $54.99 for
60 pills at CVS. I checked the price at Costco, and I could
have bought 100 pills for $19.89. For 145 of my pain pills, I paid $72.57. I could have got 150 at Costco for $28.08.

I would like to mention, that although Costco is a "membership" type store, you do NOT have to be a member to buy prescriptions there, as it is a federally regulated substance. You just tell them at the door that you wish to use the pharmacy, and they will let you in. (this is true)

I went there this past Thursday and asked them. I am asking each of you to please help me by copying this letter, and passing it into your own e-mail, and send it to everyone you know with an e-mail address.

Sharon L. Davis
Budget Analyst
U.S . Department of Commerce
Room 6839

Office Ph: 202-482-4458Office Fax: 202-482-5480
E-mail Address: sdavis@doc.gov

additional resources (thanks to my friend ken)
http://www.snopes.com/medical/drugs/generic.asp

http://tinyurl.com/4y97f

http://web.wxyz.com/extras/040205-drugchart.html

http://www1.wxyz.com/cr/cda/player/1,1272,WXYZ_34820_240_180,00.html real player req.

remarkable remake

1.28.2006
there are star ships and then there are battlestar's. there are leaders who sit in a chair and those who stand by their crew. commander adama's character returns once again to protect the fleet and leed them through space, in search of a new home we call earth. the galactica was the last remaining battlestar after the cylon invasion. she was designed to protect what remained of the colony's and the survivors of tragedy on planet coball. in the early series, which i watched faithfully, there were always day to day battles with the cylons. from time we got a few glimpses into the private lives of the characters. the show then presented itself as a space age sci-fi and always focused on the "futuristic" element first.


the new series is very much like that also but the creators are very committed to keeping the show believable and emotional inviting. you can't help but feel anger, happiness and pain (it's that well written) as you find yourself becoming involved with the crew. things like cancer, networking, alcoholism and team work are an every episode thing. the show also offers a few alternative ideas like

man-toaster love or a female president. vote Hillary! many of the original characters have resurfaced in the new sci-fi original series along with a few new ones. sorry boys, this time around starbuck is a girl! and for lusty blokes, there is plenty of eye candy and poster boys. i've just finished watching both season 1 & 2 (20+ episodes) and i'm still hungry for more. season 1's cliff hanger was great but season 2's will blow you out of the water! the episode is truly shocking when you consider it's on tv. find the time to see this series; tv just got a big kick in the ass. expect more-the new galactica delivers. check out this site for more info

another e destination

if your looking for just about anything, chances are very good the "e highway" will take you there. on one of my recent afternoon journeys, i stumbled on an updated site called live plasma. the site is a database as well as a bloodhound if your searching for movies or music. the site also generates several suggested titles or groups that may also be of personal interest. i spent a little over an hour popping in some of my favorites just to see what "other" things might come back. many of the "generated" suggestions were right on; it was almost as if they snuck into my flat and took a-look around! i also found a few un-know's that i plan on researching. oh and the visual "while you wait" stuff is pretty cool.

on the road again

1.27.2006
safe to say most highway drivers despise tractor trailers. yes, some drive recklessly and cause a lot of unnecessary stress for the average auto driver. keep in mind that they aren't all bad. consider that they are on a very time sensitive delivery schedule, travel many miles without the proper rest, spend most of there days inside a cab instead of there home, are away from there friends and family's for long periods of time and without the driver and the rig many of the products we use every day would not be available to us. thanks to a recent email from "pops" here are a few rigs well worth a second look...yes, that's art!








Work and Multiple Sclerosis


as many of you already know, i have multiple sclerosis. since my diagnosis back in april 2003, i to have had to learn to deal with this unpreditable diasease. i have always felt talking about it openly was best. this disease, for the most part, effects you in many ways that the average person cannot see. the body aches, the fatigue, the pain, the partial memorey loss, the pins and needles, the jekyl & hyde bladder, monkey brain and the over-all "crappy feeling" arent always "visable". i often discribe it to others that it's like having the flu without the fever. i have also learned the importance of sharing your feelings and experiences with others; it is so important. here is an article that i read that i thought was very positive...

Experts describe strategies that help multiple sclerosis patients cope with symptoms of the disease.

How to handle workplace issues when you have multiple sclerosis.

Elissa Levy, a 37-year-old with secondary progressive multiple sclerosis (MS), is living proof of the unpredictability of this progressive neurological disease that affects the central nervous system.
Soon after being diagnosed in January 2002, her physical status plummeted quickly. The former fitness buff who regularly skied and jogged describes the overwhelming MS-induced fatigue that plagued her almost daily. "Sometimes my eyes hurt too much to watch TV," Levy tells WebMD.

During that period, she traded her running shoes for a cane, broke off a relationship with someone she had once considered marrying, and relinquished a long-sought full-time position as director of a new charter school, taking up part-time work instead. Then, just as quickly as the symptoms struck, they abated. "I had tried all the drugs on the market for MS. As a last resort, I even did chemotherapy." She found relief through an experimental drug (not yet approved by the FDA for MS).

Now, for the second time in three years, she's had to evaluate her future. "I still dream about going for a jog. But now I can walk home from a movie 20 blocks, instead of taking a cab," Levy says. She is back to work full time, sometimes pulling 12-hour days. And she's re-established a relationship with her old boyfriend. Through the ups and downs of the disease, people with MS must go on with their lives. Very often, that means making long-range decisions about how to live, from employment to recreation -- and being open to re-evaluating them as needed. In addition to these "big picture" decisions, practicing seemingly small lifestyle strategies can make the disease more manageable.

Working With MS

Like many others with MS, Levy was forced to make decisions about her professional life. Among the questions she faced: Do I tell my employer and, if so, when? Can I continue working? What accommodations will I need? New laws, ever-increasing resources, and improved attitudes are making these decisions easier. Currently, 43% of adults who have had MS for 12 years retain employment, according to an ongoing nationwide study sponsored by the National Multiple Sclerosis Society (NMSS). But some experts believe that percentage could be higher. "Employers may have preconceived ideas about what a person with disabilities can do. It takes time to change attitudinal barriers. There's still work to be done," says Steve Nissen, director of employment programs at the NMSS.

That's why, for now, it's generally up to the employee with MS to initiate any discussions involving disclosure or accommodation requests in the workplace. Nissen considers disclosure -- the whens, whos, and hows of it -- one of the most difficult aspects of working with MS, or any disability. Before disclosing, Nissen suggests the following: "Ask yourself: 'What's going on to make you think it's time to disclose? Are you having new or different symptoms that's posing a challenge at work? Are you having trouble meeting deadlines, or missing time?'"

How to Tell Your Boss

Often, disclosure accompanies a request for special workplace accommodations. The approach can sway the outcome, Nissen notes. "It's more than saying 'This is what I need from you.' It's 'Here's how I can be more productive, effective, and reliable,'" Nissen tells WebMD.In the best-case scenario, such discussions with an employer begin as open, two-way dialogues. "It really needs to be an interactive process. You can't just go in there, make your demands, and walk out," Nissen says.

"When it comes to accommodations, there are so many different possibilities based on symptoms and job duties," Nissen tells WebMD. An accommodation may mean an altered work schedule with shortened hours or telecommuting on an as-needed basis when fatigue becomes overwhelming. It may mean adaptive equipment that allows an employee to talk into a computer rather than tap on a keyboard. It might mean keeping one room at a lower temperature than the rest of the office, if heat sensitivity is an issue. "These types of accommodations seem basic but they can really make a difference," Nissen says. Some cost more than others. To find out what's available, Nissen recommends that employees start researching locally, beginning with an area NMSS chapter and incorporating other resources such as one's state office of vocational rehabilitation.

Alternatives to Work

Choosing not to work full time anymore doesn't have to mean an end to productivity. "There are still ways to contribute as an active member of society," Nissen notes. Levy serves as a prime example. Having cut back to part-time work while battling daily pain and fatigue, she continued to find meaning through volunteer work. "I stayed positive," says Levy who, almost immediately after being diagnosed, got involved in fundraising for the disease. "That's where I found my support group -- among other fundraisers," Levy tells WebMD.

Attitude Matters

Clearly, how people with MS cope makes a difference in their day-to-day existence. "Those who have the hardest time are those who see it as a war to win. That's a setup for feelings of failure, guilt, and inadequacy when and if they can't beat it," says clinical psychologist Rosalind Kalb, PhD, director of the NMMS Professional Resource Center. "Those most successful are those who say 'I can't win the war, but let's look at which aspects I can conquer,'" Kalb tells WebMD. To this end, Kalb urges patients to break the disease down into individual challenges, whether fatigue or spasticity. "This way, they feel like they're managing the disease rather than vice versa," she says. Lifestyle choices can also make an impact on one's ability to manage MS.

Impact of Exercise

Exercise is one such choice. "Many years ago they used to say 'Don't exercise, it will make you too tired.' Now, we're encouraging patients to stay as active as possible," says Sheila Schaffer, a physical therapist at Kernan Orthopaedics and Rehabilitation Hospital in Baltimore. New research results promote physical activity. One study found that exercise improved fitness and function in people with mild MS and helped maintain function for those with moderate or severe MS. Investigators found aerobic exercise that incorporated balance training to be the most effective type. In yet another study, an eight-week progressive resistance-training program improved walking and overall functional ability in people with moderate MS.

Diet

Researchers have begun to evaluate the role of diet and certain antioxidants in relation to MS. "There's a need for a well-balanced diet. I also recommend that patients take a multivitamin," says Walter Royal III, MD, associate professor of neurology at the University of Maryland School of Medicine. Other experts stress the importance of a fiber-rich diet. Royal and other researchers are exploring the potential role of vitamins D and A in the clinical course of the disease. For now, he does not recommend specific supplementation. "It can be quite hazardous to take excessive amounts of either vitamin," Royal tells WebMD.

Alleviating Stress

For anyone with MS who needs a good reason to relax, here's one. Studies have linked stress to worsening MS symptoms. In one study, investigators recorded subjects' stressful life events unrelated to MS, like financial problems or death of a loved one. Stress caused by these events doubled the risk of an MS exacerbation. Relaxation techniques have worked for Levy. Besides taking her medicine regularly, Levy claims that meditation has made the biggest difference in her life. "My meditation helps the most. It keeps me focused on the present and allows me to stay centered," Levy tells WebMD.

"That said, you can't stop thinking about the future altogether," she adds.

Published Jan. 23, 2006.

SOURCES: Steve Nissen, director of employment programs, National Multiple Sclerosis Society. Rosalind Kalb, PhD, clinical psychologist; director, Professional Resource Center, National Multiple Sclerosis Society. Sheila Schaffer, physical therapist, Kernan Orthopaedics and Rehabilitation Hospital, Baltimore. Walter Royal III, MD, associate professor of neurology, University of Maryland School of Medicine. Brown T.R. Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation Clinics of North America, May 2005; vol 16: pp 513-55. Gutierrez, G.M. Archives of Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation, September 2005; vol 86: pp 1824-1829. Buljevac, D. British Medical Journal, Sept. 20, 2003; vol 327: pp 646-649.
original article from http://www.webmd.com

nominees for the 12th Annual Screen Actors Guild Awards

1.06.2006
Screen Actors Guild will honor its own at the 12th Annual SAG Awards™ ceremony on Sunday, Jan. 29, 2006, at the Los Angeles Shrine Exposition Center, simulcast live nationally on Turner Network Television (TNT) and TBS at 8 p.m. ET/PT, 7 p.m. CT, and 6 p.m. MT.

THEATRICAL MOTION PICTURES

Outstanding Performance by a Male Actor in a Leading Role
Russell Crowe / CINDERELLA MAN – Jim Braddock (Universal Pictures)
Philip Seymour Hoffman / CAPOTE – Truman Capote (UA/Sony Pictures Classics)
Heath Ledger / BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN – Ennis Del Mar (Focus Features)
Joaquin Phoenix / WALK THE LINE – John R. Cash (20th Century Fox)
David Strathairn / GOOD NIGHT, AND GOOD LUCK. – Edward R. Murrow (Warner Independent Pictures)

Outstanding Performance by a Female Actor in a Leading Role
Judi Dench / MRS. HENDERSON PRESENTS – Mrs. Laura Henderson (The Weinstein Company)
Felicity Huffman / TRANSAMERICA – Bree (The Weinstein Company)
Charlize Theron / NORTH COUNTRY – Josey Aimes (Warner Bros.)
Reese Witherspoon / WALK THE LINE – June Carter (20th Century Fox)
Ziyi Zhang / MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA – Sayuri (Sony Pictures Entertainment)

Outstanding Performance by a Male Actor in a Supporting Role
Don Cheadle / CRASH – Graham (Lions Gate Films)
George Clooney / SYRIANA – Bob Barnes (Warner Bros.)
Matt Dillon / CRASH – Officer Ryan (Lions Gate Films)
Paul Giamatti / CINDERELLA MAN – Joe Gould (Universal Pictures)
Jake Gyllenhaal / BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN – Jack Twist (Focus Features)

Outstanding Performance by a Female Actor in a Supporting Role
Amy Adams / JUNEBUG – Ashley (Sony Pictures Classics)
Catherine Keener/ CAPOTE – Nelle Harper Lee (UA/Sony Pictures Classics)
Frances McDormand / NORTH COUNTRY – Glory (Warner Bros.)
Rachel Weisz / THE CONSTANT GARDENER – Tessa Quayle (Focus Features)
Michelle Williams / BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN – Alma (Focus Features)

i think the choices are the best of the best!
more here...

our dear friend john...

1.05.2006
JFK assassination 'was Cuba plot'
A new documentary exploring the death of John F Kennedy claims his assassin was directed and paid by Cuba.

Rendezvous with Death, based on new evidence from Cuban, Russian and US sources, took three years to research. One source, ex-Cuban agent Oscar Marino, said Havana had exploited Lee Harvey Oswald, who was arrested but shot dead before he could be tried.

Conspiracy theories on the killing have variously accused Cuba, Russia and the US of acting alone or jointly. According to Oscar Marino, the Cubans wanted Kennedy dead because he opposed the revolution and allegedly sought to have its leader Fidel Castro killed. Mr Marino told film director Wilfried Huismann that he knew for certain the assassination was an operation run by the Cuban secret service G2, but he declined to say whether it had been ordered by Mr Castro.


I realised that I was used, I felt ashamed - we missed a moment in history.
Laurence Keenan
Former FBI agent

Cuban intelligence made contact with Oswald after being alerted by the Russian KGB in 1962 when he returned to the US after living in the Soviet Union for three years, Cuban and Russian sources say.
"He [Oswald] was so full of hate, he had the idea. We used him," Mr Marino said. A possible Cuban connection was investigated by the US immediately after Kennedy's death. But an FBI officer sent to follow the Oswald's trail during a visit to Mexico was recalled after only three days and the investigation called off.

Laurence Keenan, now 81, said it was "perhaps the worst investigation the FBI was ever involved in".
"I realised that I was used. I felt ashamed. We missed a moment in history," Mr Keenan said. Veteran US official Alexander Haig told the filmmaker that Kennedy's successor, Lyndon B Johnson, believed Cuba was to blame and feared a pronounced swing to the right if the truth were known that would keep the Democrats out of power for a long time. Mr Haig - a US military adviser at the time and later a secretary of state - told the filmmakers Johnson said: "We must simply not allow the American people to believe Fidel Castro could have killed our president." "He [Johnson] was convinced Castro killed Kennedy and he took it to his grave."

Communist sharpshooter

John F Kennedy, the 35th US president, was assassinated as his motorcade drove through Dallas in November 1963. Lee Harvey Oswald, an ex-marine sharpshooter who worked in a book warehouse overlooking the assassination, was arrested but killed shortly afterwards. He had a Russian wife, called himself a Communist and agitated on behalf of Castro's Cuba.

best films 2005?

12.29.2005
here's the first opinion i stumbled on for the best films of 2005...

for the most part i would agree. and if the "we saved the best for last" motto is true, then the nod for brokeback comes as no surprise. i think america has embraced the film with some caution and takes comfort knowing in-advance, that the two cowboys don't end up leaving their wives for one another. i hope to live to see the day when hollywood delivers a huge film where two gay characters are the focus and that they end up remaining together, with a healthy relationship and a family.

yes breaders, we do have them just like you although those in power would like to present us as disfunctional and or standing behind "your god" spewing "he wouldn't approve". therefore, instilling further ideas of false strength, longevity and superiority for heterosexual relationships. since their isn't an idiots guide to relationships for either side, we all jump in with the best intentions. as long as the heteros are in control we wont have the opportunity to marry and raise a family and prove that we are just as capable as anyone else. with this in mind it's so easy for "them" to say "look, they can't make it work" then sit back and fuck up their own relationship. i'm stepping of my soapbox so we can get to the nods...

The best of the best
Which brings us to the subject of 10-best lists. In alphabetical order, here are my picks for 2005:

“Brokeback Mountain” (directed by Ang Lee). Annie Proulx’s wrenching 1997 New Yorker story, about two men who carry on a secret affair over a couple of decades, could easily have been turned into a snicker-inviting blunder. Miraculously, the movie seems to have inspired everyone involved, and especially Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal as the lovers who will not label what they feel.

“Brothers” (Susanne Bier). A devastating Danish film about a career soldier and family man who is shipped off to Afghanistan, where he is captured and forced into an impossible “Sophie’s Choice” situation with another prisoner. Connie Nielsen stands out as the wife who thinks he’s dead and is tempted to start a new life with his troubled brother.

“Capote” (Bennett Miller). Dominated by Philip Seymour Hoffman’s uncanny impersonation of Truman Capote, this is an accomplished film on every level. Dan Futterman’s script carefully sets up the series of relationships that made Capote’s unlikely authorship of “In Cold Blood” possible. Miller’s direction, especially his handling of a near-perfect supporting cast, makes them credible.

“The Constant Gardener” (Fernando Meirelles). The Brazilian Meirelles, who earned a surprise Oscar nomination a couple of years ago for directing “City of God,” makes the leap to mainstream movies with this confident, provocative adaptation of John le Carre’s best-seller about a politically motivated murder. Ralph Fiennes was born to play the title character, an ineffectual British diplomat with an activist wife (the surprisingly excellent Rachel Weisz).

“Good Night, and Good Luck.” (George Clooney). Clooney made an impressive directing debut three years ago with “Confesssions of a Dangerous Mind,” but he’s gone on to another level with this instant classic about Edward R. Murrow’s mid-1950s television showdown with Sen. Joe McCarthy. David Strathairn and Frank Langella are the standouts in a splendid cast.

“A History of Violence” (David Cronenberg). The Canadian director demonstrates his mastery with this story of a seemingly normal family whose lives are turned around when the father reveals his true nature — by committing what appears to be a heroic act. The sense of dread is palpable, thanks in large part to Viggo Mortensen’s assured performance in the central role.

“King Kong” (Peter Jackson). New Zealand’s most famous director scores another fantasy home-run with this magnificent three-hour-plus remake of (and homage to) the 1933 classic about a giant ape, his captive girlfriend and their disastrous visit to the land of skyscrapers. Perhaps no other film this year has so enthusiastically suggested a passion for movies and an appreciation of their history.

“Lord of War” (Andrew Niccol). Another gifted New Zealander wrote and directed this scathing satire starring Nicolas Cage as a gun-runner who makes a fortune selling Cold War weapons to homicidal dictators. As he acquires a trophy wife, misleads his conscientious brother and competes with a more seasoned dealer, Cage brings a cranky deadpan flair to an almost hopelessly amoral character.

Mysterious Skin” (Gregg Araki). Araki’s eighth and strongest film is the most unsettling and memorable of the recent movies about child abuse. After a Little League coach molests them, two damaged boys grow up to lead entirely separate lives: one of them entrenched in comforting fantasy, the other acting out his frustrations through a dangerous street life.

“The Squid and the Whale” (Noah Baumbach). Who’d have guessed that a movie about a messy divorce could be so funny? Jeff Daniels delivers a career-best performance as a pompous writer, father and husband who can’t help putting his foot in his mouth. Laura Linney continues to astonish as the fed-up wife who sees a way out and takes it.

A second 10: “Broken Flowers,” “Crash,” “Downfall,” “Grizzly Man,” “Keane,” “Look at Me,” “Munich,” “Paradise Now,” “The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada,” “3-Iron.”

By John Hartl
Film critic
MSNBC

there's got to be a morning after

12.27.2005


twas the night before christmas....and by 6:30 pm i was already down for the count, even before the gifts we exchanged! i understand now that as you get older, the packages get smaller then eventually end up as these cutesy little boutique bags. christ, i could barely get my hand in it! it made me think of my early days, exploring 501's....that's another story we'll leave under the rug. all sarcasm aside, it was a very relaxing and memorable christmas eve. first stop, yet another holiday in haddock with my extended family, the fornataro's (dan, joan aka mummsy and danny) and our FAB designer friend from the big apple, kaj! imagine what goes through his mind, trapped out here in the sticks of pa! with no surprise, those in the know always sport at least one piece of black during the holiday celebration! and since we're mentioning holiday attire, someone should take personal note that if you plan on sporting blue velour and a potty mouth, people will remember! the gifts were thoughtful, mummsy's city chicken was delicious as always and diana krall sang holiday classics in the background; the cd of course. we took in war of the worlds and the will & grace holiday special. sad to say, no beverly. to bed 2:30 am.

morning came too quickly, then i was whisked off (11 am) to the pilot truck stop (don't even, it's christmas) to meet up with my brother, kennet for the next trip to mom's in berwick. as always mom went over the top; her apt. was beautifully decorated with victorian themed trimmings and her gifts, very unique & personal. we were soon joined by my uncle, tony, which meant it was time to eat! well that was the plan but i had changed that unfortunately. by 1 pm i was wiped out, again, so i headed for the bed for another long nap. once i woke up i was seated at the table for a delicious holiday dinner filled with ham, my favorite vegetable-lima beans and homemade scalped potatoes (they blow martha's recipe right out of the pot!) and sandy's famous cole-slaw. sorry it's her secret mix and it's not public. no snow for christmas, just cool high 30's and rain.

kennet and i left around 3:30 pm and headed back to nepa. by 4:30 pm i was back on the road, driving to the big b for my shift 5-11 pm. funny, people rent movies like crazy on christmas night. we had shoppers all the way up to 11 pm. then 11:20 pm came and i headed back home, which takes half an hour one way, to unpack and unwind. all in all it was a wonderful time with both family's, it's just never enough time. i will say the only thing missing this holiday was diva.


this week i'll look forward to visiting with my other friends joe and peter. by the weekend david and wendy will have arrived from boston and we'll celebrate the new year at moms.

thanks to all of you for putting a little sparkle in my holiday! i needed that...

still time left to vote

12.26.2005
i really enjoy this blog of mine. it allows me to express myself and share points of interest with just about anyone who might be interested in a moment of being ron b.. yes, it takes a great deal of time and patience but i never look at it as "work". it's a labor of love. seems others agree...the guys at best gay blogs have nominated me for "best gay blog 2005". i never imagined this kind of recognition and i'm so grateful for the consideration. if you would like to cast your vote, for my blog, click here. i'm under choice #3 (what is best gay blog). for those of you who aren't part of "our family" fear not, you wont have to face anything too "un-natural" by going to the link. i would appreciate your continued support and consideration. i would also like to mention one other blog that i enjoy visiting very much- large tony. his blog is well designed, thought provoking and best of all, well written. find his blog nomination under choice #1 for "best reviewed blog 2005". vote deadline 12/31/2005!

be marry, just a little

12.24.2005
why not consider making this holiday season, different.

help yourself and others to realize that christmas isn't about how much you spent or how many "gifts" you gave.


make sure that you travel safely and drink responsibly. remember that there are many of us who want to be able to celebrate the season for years to come.

spending quality time with friends and family is most important. talk about what christmas really is, a celebration of life. let others know how much you appreciate them for who they are. be grateful for all the good things in your life. talk about how commercial the holidays have become and do what you can to change that into something magical and meaningful. help those who can't help themselves in any way you can; the gift of kindness costs nothing. the holidays can glisten for everyone; all we have to do is look deep inside ourselves.

make that change...

jake on brokeback

12.23.2005

here's a piece from tv guide i stumbled on...

Brokeback Star Scoffs at "Courage" Talk

by Matt Webb Mitovich

Amidst all of the media coverage of Ang Lee's Brokeback Mountain — and there has been just a bit — much has been made of the "courage" it took for two Hollywood leading men such as Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger to play Jack and Ennis, cowboys who, during the isolation of a sheepherding job, most unexpectedly fall fiercely and intimately in love with each other. Gyllenhaal, though, shrugs off the use of such a loaded, powerful word, saying, "All we did was service a story, something which, to this day, I feel is a lot bigger than any one person involved in the film.

"Does it take courage nowadays [to dramatize a gay romance] when people have very different opinions of what that type of relationship is? I guess," the actor allows. "But what is really courageous is people who are trying to be intimate in their real life and who are up against real obstacles. Heath and I, we were just making a movie for two months."

As both actors garner critical kudos for their performances, it's interesting to note that Gyllenhaal originally eyed the role that ended up going to Ledger. "When I read the script for the first time, I thought that Ang would want to cast me as Ennis and Heath as Jack," he reveals, "just because I felt Heath [like Jack] was more outgoing. You're used to him being a less passive presence. But when we were cast opposite what I thought, I realized that Ang recognized in both of us something that I don't think either of us saw. The want to push forward and progress and change things was something in Jack that I felt like I had, too, while Heath is the kind of guy who carries his heart on his shoulder, and is always protecting himself in different ways."

Once the roles were assigned, the rest fell into place, thanks to screenwriter Larry McMurtry's adaptation of Annie Proulx's novella. "I know it sounds very 'actory' of me, but the story is filled with so much subtext already, all I had to do, really, was show up to the set," says Gyllenhaal. "If you read the script, it's pages and pages of scene description for the actors, about how one's feeling for the other is 'like 1,000 streams of blood rushing through his veins.' The words and the people and the ideas beneath it drove us. If we had tried to do anything more than what we do in the movie, it would have been overdoing it."

Indeed, Brokeback pulls not a single punch, not even shying away from the men's love scenes, which at the same time are intense and roused with emotion. "In this movie, the love scenes are not very different from the fight scenes," Gyllenhaal notes. "It is an exaggeration to say that Heath almost broke my nose [as has been reported], but yeah, it was very physical between the two of us.

"I was afraid of how Ang was going to shoot it," he continues. "I think it's fair to say that even he wasn't sure how he was going to shoot it, whether he was going to show the initial [moments] and then cut away to the outside of the tent. But I consider myself a relatively strong-minded person, and I probably would have fought [for my ideas] until it came out the way that it did. But Ang did do it that way, so no worries."

it's too big-make it go away

12.15.2005
you remember...faster than a speeding bullet, able to leap tall buildings in a single bound-----yes it's superman aka the man of steal! when i was younger i loved superman for a lot of reasons: he was the best looking supper hero at the time, he was strong, he helped people, he could fly and looked sexy in that body tight suit. over the years he hasn't changed too much, until now.

it has always been my contention that the film industry is run by many pigheaded, outspoken, male chauvinists who all seem to have a dark secret- penis envy. run a few titles through your mind and think about how many times we've seen naked women on screen. high number, yes? now think about how many times we've seen male nudity. perhaps they missed that conversation where dad tells jr. all about the birds and the bees. and if he didn't miss it, then he forgot the part where dad said that the average guy's penis isn't all so well off as compared to a select few whom they later saw during their first encounter with johnny holmes. normal is somewhat small, now get over it.

yes i know it's a hetro world for the most part but does that make it ok to constantly show women as a sex object first? i think not. i'm surprised more women haven't been screaming their heads off, always being denied a peak at the package. i think it comes down to yes or no for both sex's, equally. either show it or cut the scene. i'm remembering the recent articles about colin's cut nude scene in "home at the end of the world" and how the initial test audiences were affected by it. reports stated that the women literally went hog wild for the irish sausage and the men got uncomfortable, disgusted and left. america is so hoydedoydee about nudity and i'll never understand it. perhaps if we had been relaxed about it from the beginning we would be more comfortable with it now. i think much of the up-tight stuff comes from how focused our big corps and add agencies are about only showing the "beautiful people" to the public. perfect abs, boobs ready to bounce out and backsides that scream skateboard test area.

and now the rest of the news..
Brandon Routh, who is set to play Superman in the upcoming movie, must be feeling that same pride I felt when I realized I needed to switch from Magnum to MagnumXL condoms. The actor's package will be digitally reduced because the movie execs found it too distracting.
The new Superman is giving movie bosses a headache - because of the size of his bulge.

They fear Brandon Routh's profile in the superhero's skintight costume could be distracting, reports the Sun.

Hollywood executives have ordered the makers of Superman Returns to cover it up with digital effects.

The Sun's source said: "It's a major issue for the studio. Brandon is extremely well endowed and they don't want it up on the big screen.

Not only is this more proof that Hollywood executives ruin everything, but it suggests they have no interest in accurately portraying Kal-El (not that Kal-El) Think about it, Superman was definitely hung. All Kryptonians were. It has to do with gravity. It's science.

the new Ractis

12.14.2005

Toyota Motor Corporation (TMC) announced the nationwide launch in Japan of the new Ractis*1 compact passenger car through Toyopet and Toyota Corolla dealers.

Meant to allow four adults to experience driving in comfort, not only in the city, but also on the highway, the Ractis was designed with “high-speed, high-capacity styling” as its theme, paying particular attention to performance, function and styling. It has a high level of performance that allows for spirited driving, as well as a comfortable and easy-to-use interior and a stylish exterior.



Despite its compact size, the Ractis combines a roomy interior—the biggest in its class*2—with styling that makes the car look nimble. New features aimed at making driving fun combine with superb driving performance for an exhilarating experience. Furthermore, a high level of versatility, the use of class-surpassing, high-quality equipment, and class-leading safety and environmental performance make the Ractis a “one car does it all”, top-quality compact car.


The Ractis is also available in a Welcab. Welcabs are specially equipped versions of Toyota production models with factory-installed features designed specifically for disabled people. Welcabs have a broad range of applications, and feature numerous specifications that make the most of the base vehicle’s features.

*1 Derived from “runner with activity and space”

*2 By comparison with vehicles of similar engine displacement

*3 Specified by the Law Concerning the Rational Use of Energy

skip the twig's!

12.13.2005
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dreams never die

12.12.2005

many years ago i had the privilege of seeing the show, live on stage, in boston. unfortunately, jennifer holiday wasn't part of the cast at that time. none the less it was a show and a moment i'll never forget. for those of us in our 30's -40's, most can still recall what happened the moment when we first heard jennifer begin "and i am telling you". if there is a "performer" in all of us then she's the one who uncovered our secret.

i'm hopeful that the screen version lives up to the legacy of dream girls, time will tell.

LA critics back cowboy love story

12.11.2005

Ang Lee's Brokeback Mountain, a film about two gay ranch hands who fall in love, has been named 2005's best film by Los Angeles film critics.

The film, which stars Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger, also earned Lee the best director prize.

Phillip Seymour Hoffman took best actor for his portrayal of author Truman Capote in Capote.

Vera Farmiga won best actress for playing a wife and mother who becomes addicted to drugs in Down To The Bone.

With 12 weeks to go until the Academy Awards, the critics' choices mark the start of the countdown to the Oscars.

Brokeback Mountain, adapted from a story by E Annie Proulx, also took top honours at the Venice Film Festival in September.

It has only just gone on release in the US, and does not reach UK cinemas until next month.

Eclectic film-maker

In recent years Lee has carved a name for himself as one of cinema's most eclectic film-makers. The Taiwanese director's other work includes martial arts drama Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, comic book adaptation Hulk, and Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility.

Ledger was the runner-up for the best actor prize, while Dame Judi Dench was the runner-up for the best actress award for her role in Mrs Henderson Presents.

Thriller A History of Violence was the runner-up for best film, with its director David Cronenbourg the runner-up for the best director award.

Catherine Keener took the best supporting actress prize for her work in Capote as well as three other films - The 40-Year-Old Virgin, The Interpreter, and The Ballad of Jack and Rose. Runner-up was Junebug's Amy Adams, who plays a pregnant young woman from the southern US who is captivated by her sister-in-law.

William Hurt took best supporting actor for his role in A History of Violence, with Good Night and Good Luck's Frank Langella the runner-up.

The Los Angeles Film Critics Association's awards will be handed out on 17 January. Next year's Oscars will take place on 5 March.

Story from BBC NEWS:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/go/pr/fr/-/2/hi/entertainment/4518430.stm

Published: 2005/12/11 12:06:25 GMT

© BBC MMV

celebrate

12.09.2005
Holiday Eating Tips

1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving rum balls.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. Like fine single-malt scotch, it's rare. In fact, it's even rarer than single-malt scotch. You can't find it any other time of year but now. So drink up! Who cares that it has 10,000 calories in every sip? It's not as if you're going to turn into an "eggnog-aholic" or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it!!!! Have one for me. Have two. It's later than you think. It's Christmas!

3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the volcano. Repeat.

4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they're made with skim milk or whole milk. If it's skim, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole point of going to a Christmas party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?

6. Under no circumstances should you exercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do. This is the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at a buffet table, like frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position yourself near them and don't budge. Have as many as you can before becoming the center of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you're never going to see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple. Pumpkin. Mincemeat. Have a slice of each. Or, if you don't like mincemeat, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?

9. Did someone mention fruitcake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some standards.

10. One final tip: If you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Reread tips: start over, but hurry, January is just around the corner. Remember this motto to live by:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming
"WOO-HOO what a ride!"
thanks kaj!

ford motor


FORD MOTOR-Yanks It!

Ford Motor Co's Jaguar and Land Rover luxury brands are pulling all advertising from gay publications, the company said today, after facing a boycott threat from a conservative religious group.

The American Family Association had called for a boycott of the carmaker's vehicles in May, but suspended the move in June for six months after talks with Ford dealers. The six months have now ended.

"While we still have a few differences with Ford, we feel that our concerns are being addressed in good faith and will continue to be addressed in the future," Donald Wildmon, chairman of the Tupelo, Mississippi-based group, said in a statement.

Ford, which has seen its US sales fall in all but two of the last 18 months, denied the decision was made under pressure from the AFA, which has criticised Ford for being too gay-friendly.

Ford spokesman Mike Moran said the company's cancellation of the ads is part of a plan to streamline the brands' marketing strategy. He said Ford's Volvo brand will continue to buy ads in gay-oriented publications.

A group of 19 organisations that support homosexual rights said they were "deeply dismayed" by Ford's action and expected the carmaker to meet with representatives from the gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender community this week.

"We expect Ford to publicly reaffirm its historic support for our community," the groups said in a joint statement on the web page of the Human Rights Campaign, the largest US gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender civil rights organisation.

Ford declined to say how much it had spent on advertising in gay publications.

Ford's Ford, Lincoln and Mercury brands have not advertised in gay media.

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12.03.2005


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